It was never supposed to make sense.

Life wasn't meant to be charted and graphed, planned and predicted in a way that feels safe to your fearful mind.

It wasn't supposed to unfold like a balanced equation, along a linear line, or in a way that you can manage if you control enough variables.

No ba...

Women are constantly searching for the source of our power. 

We look for it in belonging.

We look for it in excellence and achievement.

We look for it men, thinking their attention and admiration makes us worthy. 

We build beautiful families, businesses, and careers, believing power resides upon...

This morning I sat in a Starbucks, sneaking an extra cup of coffee before heading to the gym.

The sun slanted through the shop window, the air rich with fresh brewed coffee and the exhilaration of a brand new year.

I sighed a deep sigh of contentment and then it hit me…

“I GET to do this.”

I get...

In my teens and 20s I didn’t need to “find’ myself, because I knew who I was.

I was confident, successful, driven woman who didn’t question her wants and desires, and I certainly didn’t feel lost.

I had goals. I had a plan. I knew 

Nevermind I didn’t question them because I never once CONSIDERED ...

They blamed us for original sin,

They burned us at the stake,

They sold and traded us like horses,

They objectified, used us, abused us and decided our fates,

They trained us to be good

Powerful, strong, confident women were domesticated long ago.

We not only carry the trauma of our ancestors ...

I’m emerging from one of the most challenge seasons of my life. A season of profound healing, pain, and rebirth. A time I wouldn’t have chosen and yet am profoundly grateful to have experienced nonetheless.

There will be times when life takes you to your knees, when the air leaves your lungs and yo...

I met God again yesterday.…on my knees, wracked with sobs and anger and smeared mascara and equal parts fuck you and thank you and I love you in the same flustered breath.

This is where I always meet him… at my edges, once I finally relinquish my death grip of control.  I forget God doesn’t want me...

Carl Jung said, “the world will ask you who you are, and if you do not know, the world will tell you.”

The world told me to be pleasant, to be quiet, to be hard working, selfless, and above all good. I not only became who the world asked me to be, I excelled at it. For over 3 decades I warmed mysel...

Once upon a time there was a good girl. A brown haired, brown eyed Midwestern girl who loved her family, went to Sunday school, used her manners and ate her broccoli. She spent her free time basking in the the warmth of approval and checking off accomplishments on the path to success.  Good grades…c...